Here we are, July 31. Where the heck has the summer gone? In just 6 days our freedom will be gone, as football practice for the boys starts on Monday and as such we will be out with them every weeknight until school starts. This will be Nick's last year in "house" league...A league, the end of the line...last stop before :::gasp::: high school!!!!! It brings tears to my eyes, remembering when he first started in this league 6 years ago. And a little more so because Noah plays on the same C-league team that Nick did when he started out, and this is Noah's last year in C league. So this will also end our association with that team as well. ::sniffle::: At the final game in November, I am sure i will need kleenex!! LOL But this is only July...well, practically August...and I don't want to rush it. Heck, I do not even want to think about the fact that school starts in 3 1/2 weeks! ACK!! A 4th grader, 8th grader and 10th grader. When did they all get so OLD?!?!?!?!? (not even gonna mention the 21 year old...no wonder my hair is falling out HAHAHA).
We were able to get to NC again this year. Got the kids to the beach, got to see my family that lives there...my grandmother, aunt, uncle, cousins. We always have a good time when we go visit. My niece asked if she could come with us this year, and since we had the extra room the the car I said why not. All the kids together seemed to have a good time and seemingly did not fight too much. That was VERY nice LOL. Then we spent a week in Pittsburgh, as the boys did a Pittsburgh Steelers Youth football camp. Nick did it last year and had fun, so this year I signed Noah up too. My uncle also signed up my cousin, so we got to see them as well and hang out with my uncle and aunt while the boys were at camp. We also visited Kennywood...3 times total this summer, a new record LOL. Noah was ecstatic that he hit the 52 inch mark, meaning he could ride the final forbidden rides. Which he did. A LOT. I raised a bunch of coaster freaks LOL. Coasters and thrill rides.
With football coming, it also is time to retool my evening workouts. We shall see where the boys practice and that will help determine what we do. No more Monday kickboxing or Tuesday Body Combat unless practice is rained out. Should be able to keep the Monday evening walk/jog, especially if Noah practices at the same place as last year, as there is a track around that practice field. Happily, my mornings will not change. At least until I get burnt out and need a break! I think the vacations helped the burn out a bit. So maybe taking time away here and there is actually a good thing. When you have an established routine, missing the gym time sometimes makes you feel guilty. But I have learned that breaks are necessary. The last break helped me mentally..to the point I briefly thought of adding another workout. But I said NO...body needs rest in between! I surely do not need an injury to involuntarily keep me down! I have not overcome the plateau I hit back around Memorial Day, at least on the scale. But I have determined that I need to take my wedding rings in to be resized. They are very loose and at some times of the day probably at risk of falling off. Mainly when I am sweaty LOL. But they even slide off easier now when i wash/dry my hands. drying under them so I don't get irritation...they just slide right off. my knuckle used to hold them on better. My fingers are NOT where I would like to lose more weight/volume, dear body!!!!!! Please divert the weight/fat loss to my mid-section. I know I won't ever be a 120lb size 4 beauty...but I'd still like to knock off a few more pounds anyway just for...fun...HAHA. I am probably down about 85-95lbs from my all-time highest weight from about 8+ years ago. I should be happy with that. And I am. But I would still have a long way to go to get to my 'recommended" weight. A number I do not think I will ever see. But I keep making small goals on this journey. And when I hit the goal, then i think about the next one. I can't think too far ahead, or make impossible goals. No "I want to lose 50lbs in 6 months" baloney. Mine are more like "I want to get to ___ lbs" and when i hot that, I figure out how long it took and make the next goal of ___ lbs. Not in any specific time. Just would like to get there. Eventually. It does not make hitting the plateaus less frustrating, but it makes me less likely to give up altogether because I don't have a DATE, so no pressure to "fit into that dress by Christmas" and thus no freaking out when it does not happen. At least that is what I keep telling myself!
Somewhere along the line this summer, I lost another alleged friend. Actually, I know exactly when it happened. This time with no warning or explanation. Not only the loss of a friend, but expulsion from a group of other "friends," as if I committed some mortal sin. I did, I guess...I was just being myself. Oh well. While it upset me at first, and then made me mad...now I am just like, bah...whatever! I sure have no idea why folks decide I am not worthy, but at this point, I am too tired to worry about it. I suppose I am meant to go thru life with just my family by my side. I just have several acquaintances now...no real friends, no go-to "girls night out" buddies, nobody local to just escape with. I guess if I ever fight with Rudy HE will have to be the one to leave and go stay somewhere...probably on a cot in the lab at his office LOL. (just kidding...we have never fought to the extent one of us leaves to cool down for more than an hour or 2!!! we simply do not allow it. kinda like not going to bed angry....). Anyway...I have decided I just have to be ME and if folks can't handle it, whatever. I am not frilly, not girly, don't care much for shopping, makeup, etc., love some sports, can be highly opinionated, very open minded and yes shy and somewhat introverted. I guess folks can't handle that!
Ok cutting this off now. Headache...grrr. :(
